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Are you ready to go down the rabbit hole? To visit a surreal world, where black is white and white is carrots?

A friend, Metacognician in Shanghai, describes the situation as follows: “Life is more absurd than movies. I've gone down the rabbit hole too, when it just becomes more and more strange and you wonder how that all is supposed to make sense.” I asked him if I should just embrace it. He answered, “Why should you ... change the universe?”

It started with a psychotic named Jim Kiraly who resides, we think, at 6329 Twinberry Circle, Avila Beach, California.

Jim Kiraly is a respected citizen. A churchgoer. A Vice President of Transamerica Corporation. And a violent abuser who tried to use an emergency anti-violence measure, one intended to protect battered women, to stop his victim in a wheelchair from writing a book.

Concise enough? :)

For attorneys: Jim Kiraly filed for CLETS against his son and victim, who lived 200 miles away, did not own a car, and was in a wheelchair. His son and victim was not asked to end communications. Jim had no (zero) specific and relevant allegations that were not perjury. But he turned down repeated offers of no-contact and a signed stipulation that gave him everything but CLETS. He insisted on CLETS if his victim ever once “discussed” him with third parties.

In the end, Jim Kiraly signed an agreement far weaker than the ones he'd been offered.

A review of Court paperwork and other materials will tend to confirm that Jim and other parties, including attorneys on all sides, committed multiple felonies, crimes, and faux pas. :P

The word “abuser” is stated here publicly and without equivocation. A formal offer is hereby made to reaffirm the word in writing and under oath. Attorneys will understand the significance of the point. In short, there is little terror of a threatened defamation suit on this side. Actually, we feel that such a suit will fit nicely up Jim Kiraly's abuser ass.

Jim has one son, Ken Kiraly, who invented the Amazon Kindle and is one of the leads at Amazon's secret Lab126. Another son, Tom Kiraly is one of the leads, a Vice President-CFO type, at medical insurance firms, including one of the largest, Humana Corporation.

These people and some of the biggest names in Silicon Valley legal circles have committed or are involved in multiple crimes.

For the next decade or two, we're going to explore the crimes that these people committed, the motivations and the denial involved, the background and histories that led each person to make the choices that they did, and ways to build upon what happened and move towards positive societal goals.

There's plenty to go over. These people committed or were involved in: Spousal abuse, child abuse, DDOS (a highly prosecutable violation of CFAA), extortion, perjury, conspiracy to commit perjury (a possible felony), false police reports, conspiracy to file false police reports (a possible felony), unlawful threats, barratry, defamation, malpractice, civil harassment, criminal harassment, abuse of process, and violations of SCCBA Professional Standards.

The point was to force Jim's oldest son and victim, me, to sign a gag order. I was in a wheelchair. I'd never made a single inappropriate threat against my abuser. I wasn't even asked to not to call anybody. But Jim threatened to put me in a violence database unless I agreed never to write about him.

I won the right to write, but I lost my home of 25 years, most of my possessions, my chances for retirement, everything. Everything but a realization.

I can make a difference. I can conduct research for legitimate and reasonable purposes, document what happened, and analyze the choices of the people involved:

Maggie told me that she didn't know what she could say to me about what happened. However, we have decades to work it out. It will be productive. I'd like to direct the attention of attorneys and other parties to the:

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Saturday 2012-12-15 — Fate was Ate Food on the Plate

121215.1. On Saturday 121215 I went to eat at a favorite buffet. This was the first meal I'd had since Tuesday 121211. I paid the usual price physically later; it's something similar to shock.

As I've said before, if I need to leave the area, I'll miss the buffet. I don't get to eat with people I know but there are people around, the service is friendly, and the food is pretty good.

I had a short conversation with Bacon Bits about the meal:

<OldCoder> I get to eat now
<baconbits> good

<OldCoder> I 8
<baconbits> what did you eat?
<OldCoder> fate was ate I rate ate as great food I do not hate mate fate was ate food on the plate
<baconbits> lolok
<OldCoder> :-)
<baconbits> :P

Recently, a manager at the buffet made me an offer. He said that he'd trade food for help with social media. Asked me to upload some photos of the place to a particular social site. Free food is good. So on Saturday I took some photos. Not a complete portfolio; just a few examples.

As of this writing I haven't posted the photos to a social site yet. However, if people are curious about one of the places I like to go, a place that I wish I didn't need to give up, here they are. Check out that steak.

Image processing: I've made edits including crop, sharpen, scale, and contrast adjust. As usual, FOSS tools were used for all changes.








Friday 2012-12-14 — General

121214.1. Friday started out ordinary. As ordinary as my days get recently.

I got a haircut. The barber shop had Christmas music playing. While I sat in the barber chair, getting trimmed, I listened to the music. My mind wandered to the idea of families. To feelings about what it might be like to be a kid and have a place where you belonged. Where you were safe and nobody would hurt you.

I thought of the Kiralys and I apparently shuddered. The barber thought he had cut me but he hadn't.

My right index finger seemed to twist more than usual in the afternoon. The hand is damaged as explained previously. I found that I was more tired than usual as well. But I tried to catch up with things.

This proved to be difficult. I bit off more than I could chew today. Too many tasks. Too many people asked for help as well. I could only do part of what they needed.

Blue Dream left IRC early and that bothered me. I'd promised to teach him a bit about VPS. I phoned him for the first time and left voicemail apologizing for my failure to come through. He came back to IRC later and we moved forward.

At some point, Chaos showed up in IRC and wrecked havoc. He told me he was bored. As an experiment, I brought up the issue of his identity. Part of the conversation is quoted elsewhere.

I'm writing this at 4:42am on Saturday. It's time to sleep. Should have been asleep six hours ago.


Friday 2012-12-14 — Higgins Lord of the Manor

121214.2. Here's another picture of Mr. Meow's cat Higgins and a discussion of the picture.

<mrmeow> Now that arch decided to be all retarded and use systemd
* mrmeow has no idea how to autostart a daemon!
<maskedlua> systemctl enable $daemon.service
<maskedlua> mrmeow: pretty kitty
<OldCoder> The kitty is fierce
<OldCoder> Your heart he will pierce
<maskedlua> and cute :-) lol
<OldCoder> If you call him pretty



Friday 2012-12-14 — I See IRC: Code as Art

121214.3. This IRC fragment may only be of interest to engineers. Edited for length.

<Archangel> its already done in JAVA in terasology
<Archangel> also opensource
<Archangel> and it works reasonably fast
<Archangel> so i dont worry bout the speed
<OldCoder> Having fun? :-)
<Archangel> yeah, its fun

<Archangel> im in the matrix literaly now
<Archangel> doing rotation functions
<OldCoder> So you are converting Java to Lua?
<Archangel> basically
<OldCoder> This will be interesting to see

<Archangel> i already ported some usable stuff
<OldCoder> I assume that will be needed for other things
<Archangel> trees already need that
<OldCoder> Got it
<OldCoder> So this goes into worlds with the new trees
<Archangel> yes
* OldCoder nods

<OldCoder> You are still composing music
<OldCoder> In a way
<Archangel> no
<OldCoder> No?
<OldCoder> This is art
<Archangel> i never did
<OldCoder> Then
<OldCoder> You are composing now
<Archangel> ah, this way
<Archangel> code is music for me, indeed
<OldCoder> :-)

<Archangel> far better even
<Archangel> because it works
<OldCoder> Works?
<Archangel> code is such piece of creation
<Archangel> that actually works
<Archangel> is changing
<OldCoder> A work that changes over time
<Archangel> yes

<Archangel> imagine madonna releasin “like a virgin” dozens of times
<Archangel> because she changed something ;)
<OldCoder> Evolution of expression


Friday 2012-12-14 — I See IRC: Chaos and Order

121214.4. This is part of the story of Chaos and Order; two IRC figures who are quite interesting. I believe Chaos may be a true MPD.

Somebody has asked me if I am Chaos or Order. The answer is no. Based on research done by Jerome, and what Chaos and Order have told me, the origin of Chaos is fairly clear. He seems to be one aspect of a case of true MPD.

Note the spelling errors here that may be artificial. They're reminiscent of errors on the clock that Jacob gave me as a gift. I don't know if Jacob is Chaos or not. It's an odd possibility.

<OldCoder> ********* was not Order initially
<OldCoder> But he has assumed that role
<Chaos> Hmmm
<Chaos> Oldcoder have u seen ****** picture??
<OldCoder> I have
<Chaos> From 1 to 10 how attrative do YOU think she is

<Chaos> Yeah I thought so
<OldCoder> I was called away
<OldCoder> I have about 5 conversations at times
<OldCoder> And what is attractive?
<OldCoder> You know it is not about appearance

<OldCoder> I am exhausted
<OldCoder> In real life
<OldCoder> You were created
<OldCoder> This summer
<OldCoder> To serve a purpose
<OldCoder> Decide what the purpose is

<Chaos> K let me rephrase that..... from 1 to 10 how fisically attrative is she
<OldCoder> See the above
<OldCoder> Why do you exist?
<OldCoder> That is not questioning
<OldCoder> Your right to exist
<OldCoder> But where will you go from here?

<Chaos> To the bathroom
<OldCoder> Go to the bathroom then
<Chaos> Now answer
<OldCoder> Time is the currency we spend that cannot be replenished
<OldCoder> I have spent my time today on this
<OldCoder> I should not have done so. And your own time is not unlimited.
<Chaos> I know but I'm doing something beside this so it doesn't matter
<Chaos> So respond

<OldCoder> You miss the point
<OldCoder> Why do you exist?
<OldCoder> You know why you were created

<Chaos> Dude common just respond
<OldCoder> See above: Wasted time
<OldCoder> You want me to play that kind of game...
<Chaos> Its a question I wanted to find out
<OldCoder> I don't have the kind of time that you wish me to spend.

<OldCoder> If people treat you unfairly
<OldCoder> Then respond
<OldCoder> Nothing that happened tonight was called for
<OldCoder> Are you an automaton?
<OldCoder> The answer is no

<OldCoder> Do you intend to embrace Chaos as thoroughly as ********* embraced Order?
<OldCoder> You will be as silly in the end as his bot
<OldCoder> Become a person
<OldCoder> Full fledged
<OldCoder> With some depth
<OldCoder> I made the transition
<OldCoder> Do you think...

<Chaos> Wth are u talking about lol
<OldCoder> I am not the same?

<OldCoder> Do you not know?
<OldCoder> Answer me truly
<OldCoder> I have become real
<OldCoder> You can do the same

<OldCoder> I am exhausted. And I have miles to go before I sleep. I am going for a walk now.
<OldCoder> I want your permission BTW...
<OldCoder> to tell your full story. After I tell my own.
<OldCoder> That is going to take some time.

<OldCoder> If you don't know who and what you are
<OldCoder> That is going to complicate things
* OldCoder is going for a walk
<Chaos> Kk
<OldCoder> C U
<OldCoder> D:
<Chaos> Later


Thursday 2012-12-13 — General

121213.1. I apparently slept 12:20am to 11:15am Thursday. I was probably awake for part of the period and may have done some work. Not sure though. Things are a blur recently. Since I slept quite late, time was short. So I put the Kiraly Cases aside for the day and focused on tasks where I'd been falling behind.

121213.2. I'd like Phenek, Rubidiun, Tactician, and Metacognician to know that their time recently has been much appreciated. Others have been remarkably kind as well.

121213.3. I'd also like to thank the party in Santa Clara County who studied this site so carefully this week. You were certainly diligent. Did you find what you were hoping to find? No? Too bad :P


Thursday 2012-12-13 — Minetest virtual worlds

121213.4. The OldCoder Server Nexus has been updated to Minetest 0.4.4. All 18 U.S. worlds. Europe will be updated later. Please test the worlds and report any problems.

A new Windows Minetest 0.4.4 client program is available. To get the program, visit the page at this link.

Computers have been added to most worlds. The mod is by kaeza.


Thursday 2012-12-13 — I See IRC: Danger Coder

121213.5. Metacognician commented on navigating relationships with women. No disrespect to women is intended. Men are as confusing to women at times as the other way around.

<Metacognician> easy would be boring ;)
<DangerCoder> Oh my
<Metacognician> as I said, juggling chainsaws on a unicycle... maybe I forgot to mention it goes backwards downhill?

121213.6. For those who are curious about the DangerCoder nick:

<PlowBread> he's an mba learning to code.
<Metacognician> dangerous ;)
<OldCoder> Danger Coder
<OldCoder> Yet another good movie or TV series
<Metacognician> Extreme Programming (while bungee-jumping)
* OldCoder hums the theme song
<OldCoder> He's a man with a plan for code...

<Metacognician> his arch-nemesis, Lord Segfault and his henchman Killall Minus-One Minus-Nine
* OldCoder laughs
<OldCoder> That is the series imagined as a Saturday Morning Show
<OldCoder> I had thought of it as a noir drama with a bit of surreal
<OldCoder> Like The Prisoner Mixed with Tron

<Metacognician> ah, then the henchmen need more reasonable names
<Metacognician> how about the russian zgrep ?

<OldCoder> Very nice!
<OldCoder> That pays the price
<OldCoder> Code On Ice
<OldCoder> Another vision
<OldCoder> Skating Paradigms
<OldCoder> I better get back to work
<OldCoder> But here I'll lurk
<OldCoder> Page me if you need me
<OldCoder> Danger Coder!

* OldCoder is now known as DangerCoder


Thursday 2012-12-13 — I See IRC: Chaos and Order

121213.7. This is part of the story of Chaos and Order; two IRC figures who are quite interesting. I believe Chaos may be a true MPD.

<Atanea> it's his problem
<Atanea> that unnatural mother ******
<Atanea> already talked with *****
<OldCoder> I know
<Atanea> what?

<OldCoder> Request is to look for a way to work things out
<OldCoder> There is more to the story
<OldCoder> And the story is not for today
<OldCoder> Life is odd isn't it?
<Atanea> yea.
<OldCoder> We see things from so many different perspectives
<Atanea> worst than that.

<OldCoder> There are things you do not know. Or it is possible that you do know. I will not elaborate on that.
<OldCoder> He is Chaos seeking Order. As Order seeks Chaos.
<OldCoder> They must find a balance
<OldCoder> I will help if I can
<OldCoder> The balance is not stasis
<OldCoder> Stasis is pure Order. Victory over Chaos. It is also the end of change and possibility.
<OldCoder> There is another way
<OldCoder> Let him find it


Wednesday 2012-12-12 — Transamerica Research

121212.1. As has been documented previously, for example in the Infamous Document Set, I'm conducting lawful and appropriate research that is justified from legal and ethical perspectives on not one but several grounds.

Parties who are interested in commenting on the research, either attorneys or lay people, may find that it is worthwhile to review the grounds for said research first.

I did a bit of reading today, as part of this, related to Transamerica Corporation. The company that built the Pyramid in San Francisco and the one where my father, James Kiraly, served as Vice President.

I was surprised to learn that the company had, in a sense, died back in the 1990s. The Transamerica brand continues and there are company offices in San Francisco. But the corporation that I grew up with doesn't exist any longer.

Companies are mortal, of course, so I should have anticipated this. At any rate, Transamerica was sold in the summer of 1999 to a multinational named Aegon. Aegon shut down the old corporate headquarters subsequently, the one in the Pyramid, as it was redundant.

However, I was able to locate and speak with two women, Marie and Dolores, who had worked at Transamerica. Both of them were familiar with James and his work at the firm. Dolores had known him personally.

I explained who I was to Marie and Dolores. Both women spoke to me at length and were most kind. I'd like to express my thanks to them for their time.

Dolores asked how my parents were doing. Both my father and my mother. She'd apparently known Grace as well as James. I answered honestly and said that James had had strokes but that Grace, as a believer in diet and exercise, looked years younger than her age.

Dolores also knew that James and Grace were living in Pismo Beach, California. So I told her a funny story about why James and Grace had settled there. I'll post it online another time.

I also learned today that Gary Depolo, a Transamerica associate of James who he often talked about years ago, is alive. Frank Herringer, who I'm told arranged the sale of Transamerica to Aegon, is still around too. James Harvey, former CEO, died a few years before the company was sold.

I explained to one of Mr. Herringer's associates that I was working on a book and asked that a message expressing interest in an interview be passed on to him. The interview itself, if it takes place, may be some distance down the road. There's more research to be done first.

Mr. Depolo is apparently located in Orinda, a city near San Francisco. I haven't contacted him yet.


Wednesday 2012-12-12 — PAC-Man Thoughts

121212.2. As a lesser note, I learned today that James was a contributor to Transamerica Corporation Political Action Committee (TRANSPAC). But it appears that his involvement with the PAC in question was limited.

To be clear, the preceding point is public information. The part that matters is how James's political views, which are most likely related to his PAC activity, may connect to how he processes facts.

This will require thought.

Did James Kiraly shape his views over time consciously based on facts? Or did views that he was comfortable with, that he wanted to be based in reality, shape him?

My book, the one that James has fought without remorse or even, I think, introspection to stop, was originally imagined as a work that would discuss family relationships and the structure of social groups with my life as a laboratory example.

But, in one sense, the Kiraly Cases turned one year old just over a week ago. A year of this situation has reshaped my own thinking.

And, as a side note, who and what I am. Some of my associates have watched this happen. Watched me change. I've watched their reactions. The changes have been for the better.

It's clear now that the book needs to serve a broader purpose than I had imagined. There are lessons to be learned from the Kiraly Cases. Lessons about abuse. How it happens. About reality and fiction. About the lies that we tell ourselves, all of them.

As time passes, the lessons will be explored. Over the years, some good will come out of the damage that the Kiralys have done.


Wednesday 2012-12-12 — Bubba the Fierce Watchdog

121212.3. Here's a photo of Bubba the dog. Posted with his owner's permission.

Image processing: I cropped the picture, sharpened slightly, and adjusted contrast slightly. No scale was required. I also recolored a couple of bright pixels on the dog's nose. The usual FOSS tools were used.



Wednesday 2012-12-12 — General

121212.4. Slept abruptly from 9:10pm Tuesday to 3:00am Wednesday. I worked on a letter to my attorney from 3:15am to 5:00am. Spoke with Phenek, Mr. Meow, and a few others after that.

I drank some artificial orange juice. It usually doesn't affect me but it's similar to food and this may have been an issue today. Breathing shifted strongly by 7:20am and I was out cold from 7:30am to 10:00am. Breathing remained accelerated afterward.

121212.5. Spoke briefly with God's Memory around 10:10am:

<godsmemory> i have a busy few days ahead of me
<OldCoder> That is positive
<OldCoder> Busy for you means productive
<OldCoder> Productive is important. Time spent is time gone. Like winter snow on summer lawn.
<godsmemory> Or the last sausage in the refrigerator.
<OldCoder> Hmm
<OldCoder> If you are saying that snacks eaten are gone from the refrigerator you are correct
<OldCoder> Sausage lossage
<OldCoder> Into each life only so much sausage and butterscotch pudding will fall
<OldCoder> Snack ye while ye may
<OldCoder> You will have both. This is the breakfast of thy discontent.


Tuesday 2012-12-11 — Medical

121211.1. Slept 2:25am to 6:25am Tuesday. There were two periods later in the morning where I was hit with the breathing “shock” issue. One in the afternoon. They lasted about 15 to 30 minutes each.

121211.2. I hadn't eaten since Saturday 121208. Today I planned to go eat and have several types of meat. Plowbread said that it was inadvisable to eat multiple meats at once. Here's my response. It was extemporaneous except for a change to one word in the last line.

Regarding meat it is a feat
this is true
but between me and you
it's time for hunger to be beat
with meat
I will get on my feet
and go to meet
meat later today

121211.3. I went to a favorite buffet in the afternoon. I hadn't been there for a while. If I need to move out of the area, I'll miss the buffet. It's an ordinary business but friendly and the food is good.

Today, I talked to a manager and mentioned to him that the business should do more with social media. He offered to trade food for assistance in this area. I might take him up on the offer.

I was unwell after eating. This was normal and expected. But it went farther than usual.


Tuesday 2012-12-11 — I See IRC: Mothers

121211.4. NoClues misunderstood something. I think he may have believed that my mother was dead:

<noclues> go back to bed
<noclues> it is still too early
<OldCoder> No
<OldCoder> I slept 4.0 whole hours
<noclues> EEEE
<noclues> not enough
<noclues> Go back to bed
<OldCoder> No
<noclues> Yes
<noclues> I am your mother and you will do as I say
<noclues> Now go to bed
<OldCoder> If you only knew
<noclues> @OldCoder If you only knew
<noclues> Oh :(

The part NoClues misunderstood is that I never actually had a mother. Or a biological family. Looking back, it's astonishing that it took what the Kiralys did in 2012 to make the situation clear. I'm slow about some things. That isn't too bad. But to go a lifetime blind to the obvious...


Tuesday 2012-12-11 — Jordach 140-Character Challenge

121211.5. Jordach is experimenting with rhymes that are exactly 140 characters in length not counting the newlines. This is the maximum length of a tweet.

Here are four by me. Each piece is exactly the length in question: 140 characters counting the @name part and excluding the newline. To add to the challenge, each piece is also an attempt to respond appropriately to one of Jordach's tweets.

@jordansnelling But rhyme time is now simple as that pull rhymes out of hat always time rhymes to chime you're not mime rhymes all the times

@jordansnelling Redeem it would seem soul will gleam light of beam to shine your soul and mine rise they will it is a thrill still to redeem

@jordansnelling You'd be good at the rhymes profession but avoid obsession // rhymes are fun son // need not be // characters 140 // exactly

@jordansnelling Alone not always to atone // Or to madness be prone // Not a contention bone // Be alone and off the phone // Skills to hone


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